Why people hurt?

Jesus,
I'm having another hard time today. Yeah go figure. You gave me this lovely gift of taking on other peoples hurt or what not. When my friend told me he is hurting pretty badly right now... I wondered what could make him hurt soo much? He doesn't want to hurt others around him but Lord I think I am hurt. When I heard that, I was hoping I could fix it and make all the troubles go away. I know Lord, you're the only one that can do that. I found myself Sunday night wanting to grab my closest pillow and just hold it tight partially imagining that he was there. Yeah I know dumb. I know me holding someone won't take things away or them holding me... won't take things away but I'd like to think it could help alittle. I can only think of playing this song for them right now.

You know me, I've always loved this song.
I know what I need.. I know what he needs. Abiding in you. Resting in your arms. and I think it is true in the lyrics that " your too in love to let it go... but if you never try you'll never know.. what you're worth." I want to know that I do have worth. Wanna believe it with every single fiber of my being. Just because someone doesn't want to talk to me. My worth is not based on that. I think for far too long Lord, I believed that. But you are starting to help me see and the help of others that I do have worth. That I am a great friend. If people are willing to jeopardize having a friend like me in their life, then it is their loss ultimately. I want to be a faithful friend to everyone, even to this person that I know is hurting. I admit I wish I could hold him but God you have to do that for me, so please do it, Okay.

I've been realizing lately Lord, that I have been stuffing my hurt inside my heart until last night, I just broke down in tears. I've been missing someone, worried about my sister as well but how do I handle it? Can't even call my sister while she's in the hospital and now I hurt her. I didn't mean to hurt her Lord and I am sorry. I've been a bad sister this week, but sometimes I'm not sure what to say to people or how to cope. Does that mean I'm not Christ like? Or does it mean I am a person dealing with things differently just like my friend is dealing with things right now too. We can be selfish sometimes God that we do, forget to show love to the people we actually love the most. Its all just crazy I think. Its like the trail of one person being hurt, another person being hurt and then they hurt other people. I will always remember that one status Jaamar posted on his facebook one day. "and Hurt people...hurt people." So true. Even if we don't mean it and we try our darnest not to. Someone ultimately gets hurt.
Its soo easy to be in our own little world of population me. I can get on the computer talk to my friends online and stay in the bubble of my house. But I know there are others out there that need our comfort whether its the friends through the internet or the neighbor down the street we passed by. God I want to be used by you. I want to use more the gift you gave me as an encourager. Sometimes I feel shot down by some people that say.."well my friends don't even send me bible verses." Well it makes me wonder when I hear that.... and...why not? I have a few friends that send me bible verses and honestly I wish I could get more. Sometimes people think that not talking to people is the answer. But I don't think it is. We are suppose to be there for one another. Even if we say nothing and sit next to them in a restaurant booth ya know. We don't have to carry our burdens on our own. If we do that we get weighed down by the weight of this world. Oh believe me I know. We have you, Jesus, first and foremost and then we have all Your children to help us along the way.
I just get reminded of this song now Lord. Only I can use non Christian and Christian songs in the same blog right. haha


I can only think of the bible verses in Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 that state:
"Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."